My stomach is in knots most days. I haven't been able to really function. It is always on my mind. The "what ifs" the guilt and the questions.
I wish I could make it all stop. But it is just the beginning. I wish I could live a "normal" life and go through this process. But I think I gave up being "normal" a long time ago. I am seeing a counselor and that is helping. However, I am struggling with staying positive. I feel so negative, so helpless, and so not myself anymore. This is by far my hardest struggle of my life. From the time I was a little girl I knew that I wanted to be a mother. All of my Barbies were pregnant and I would pretend to be pregnant by stuffing my shirts to make a pregnant belly. My poor parents where probably horrified! Hahaha. When someone would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up? My response was a mother and the president.
Isn't this the cutest elephant?
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Portable and lightweight.
Older babies can arch their backs and tip out of the seat.
Some packaging shows Bumbo Seats being used on tables or counters, which is not safe.
Costs a lot for a simple baby seat.
While I was in the doctor's office, I whipped out my Kindle and browsed for books about IVF and I found this one:
I liked the book because she writes and communicates like you are a close friend and she completely understands the anxiety and emotions surrounding IVF.
Last night, I did make the mistake of reading it before bed and I was wired. I couldn't get to sleep for over an hour. It was as if I consumed five cups of coffee. Note to self do not read IVF books before bed.
This book fulfills my first item on my to do list.
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First, on my to do list for IVF is:
1. Learn everything I can about the IVF process.
I am completely new to this. I have known other couples who did IVF but I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would be joining their camp. But I am here now so I am going to make the best of it.